2020 Reflections

​Investing a few minutes of reflection on the past year can draw you into the future with more honesty and awareness.  We can't really know where we are going if we don't understand where we have been.  Here are my reflections on these important questions:
 
HOW did you change?  I gained clarity.  (Early in 2020 I had eye surgery that included lens implants enabling me to have 20/20 vision for the first time in my life.  This physical vision transformation coincides with inner clarity that is also improving.) 
 
WHAT changed you?  Courage to name my childhood trauma with vulnerable honesty. (Even though I have been working on my story for many years, seeking and finding much healing, I am now learning to describe the abuse I experienced with more bold, strong and demonstrative vocabulary, i.e. trauma, violence, assault, Complex PTSD, and deep suffering.  My vision has become more clear.  This clarity is changing the way I describe my past, and is enabling me to express just how extensively the harm has affected my life.)
 
WHO was important? My new online community.  (I know that for many, Covid 19 has brought much fear, isolation and pain.  For me, social distancing opened the door to a whole new community online.  I have been able to meet and connect with people across the country who are each also on their own powerfully healing journey.  These women have become courageous voices calling me into deeper sadness, anger and pain, as well as faith, hope and love.)
 
Other questions to ponder:  HOW did you resist change?  WHAT unhealed past trauma stopped you?  WHOSE voice takes power over you?
 

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